maybe giant leaps are what I need.

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acknowledgement.

I don’t know whether I’m being paranoid or just realistic. Ever since, the second semester of school began, I felt this enormous change, lost of communication, touch and this lingering distance. Things didn’t go back to how they were before the May holidays, it’s like, while everyone literally moved on, I was still stuck behind, or all of sudden I seem to be going down a different path. Sometimes I wish I weren’t so prone to realising the obvious, and then getting sensitive and emotional about it inside. Well, this time I’m not as affected by it as I use to be, eventho I FINALLY found out why exactly I’m so bothered. I’ve said it before, it sucks being constantly forgotten and replaced.

the rubber thingie on my braces is now transparent, instead of the usual colours, because that’s how I’ve been feeling lately, or that’s how you’ve been making me feel 

I don’t know who, or what I need now.

you prick.

Skipped school today, as I was planning to do so the night before. Abandoned plans to iron uniform, check if socks were washed and complete any overdue homework. I really do have to learn the art of time management. Spent the entire day doing homework, eating and sleeping :D Anyways, I’ve got a Geography test tomorrow, it’s 9.30 now and I’m yet to take a bath.

iPhone is so addictive. Darn the millions of applications and my habit to ‘unlock’ the phone because its fun to slide the arrow on the touchscreen.

rant : I find it absolutely uhnoying when my aunt’s make comments about the price of my belongings. Yes, I KNOW they are expensive (I am not bragging) but how can they expect me NOT to appreciate and value these very valuable items ? They must think that I’m some good-for-nothing, ungrateful spoilt brat who doesn’t know the value of money, which I certainly am not. I won’t be surprised if they percieve me to think that money grows on trees, but obviously I know better. Just because I attend a private school, and am considered ‘privileged’ compared to others, does not mean that I do not know how appreciate what my parents do for me, the things I am rewarded with, and neither does it make me a bimbo. Its up to my parents whether or not they want to spoil me and if they are willing to pay for what I want. It’s not like I purchase a RM200 dress nor a RM1000 phone ALL THE TIME and only recently, this year to be precise, have my parents agreed to do so, for the first time in 17 friggin years ! (again I am not bragging, just trying to justify my point) I love my relatives, but sometimes they can be a humongous pain in the ass  -_-

I hate this stupid rule where aunts and uncles have more authority over their nieces and nephews, than the parents do. It’s a bullshit policy, and for heaven’s sake, we’re living in the 21 century, so its about time some old rules die hard

ciao.

Cheer 2009 Finals.

Totally knackered. Cheer 2009 was good. Performances by local artists are currently ongoing (updates via StarBrats and StarRAge on Twitter)

Anyways, the day started of with all of us, Nadine, Nel, Mas, Denise, Khairi and moi, meeting up at KTM Subang around 9. Took us approx 30 mins to get to KL Sentral. Upon meeting Anir, Khairi immediately went ‘he looks like me o.o’ same coloured top, pants and shoes. Bought tickets for LRT, and had to transit at another train station to get all the way to Bukit Jalil. In total we spent about 2 hours. Had loads of funneh moments on the train. Of jail’s and body odours :P Twas definitely an adventure.

Met up with other SriKLians at the indoor stadium. The event was hosted by veteran host Jien (of Disney Buzz fame) who has been doing so for the past 9 or 10 years and Jeremy of RedFM, the newcomer and an upcoming radio DJ in the Klang Valley. and may I say, boy were they cute ! although Jeremy was the better looking out of the two (for me). Signs of fatigue were as clear as water on Jien’s face. Maybe age is getting to him ? Other than that, the competition was sponsored by HL milk, Silkygirl, The Star R.Age , 8tv and the Ministry of Sports & Education.

Watched a few performances before changing into my BRats t-shirt and reporting for duty. Honestly, I felt pretty useless because I was that clueless, and the only person that I really knew was Sandra, other than the professional journalists who also work at The Star, like Niki and Ian. Was given access to the restricted zone and the room labeled Secretariat (I swear this word reminds me of the League of Nations and United Nations, History deii) Seeing all that equipment brought me back to May 2008, when I first attended the BRats camp in Penang. Good times (:

Helped update the Star BRats Twitter account and assisted in other small areas. In between Sandra and I took part in this faux competition, as all we had to do was ‘dance’ to Thriller and immediately we both won a bag of Silkygirl products each. Well us and 8 others. It was entertaining (: Besides the games, the crowd was entertained twice by the professional cheerleader’s cum judges ; Tye Hill from Total Cheerleading (one of the TOP cheerleader’s and tumbler’s in the world) and that other guy, who’s name I don’t even know, think divalicous :P

Altogether 41 cheerleading teams took part, some being all boys teams and majority, girls. Of course there were the favourite’s like Dynamitez, Blitzers, Titans, Pirates, Shirtlift, Calyx, Stunnerz etc etc . Was pretty confident that (1)Blitzers of SMK Bandar Utama Damansara (4) would win, because I personally found their performance to be completely dynamic, energetic, polished and refreshing. In other words, they delivered and true enough they were the overall champions, as they were a clear 39 points ahead of the first runner up winner, (2)SMK Seri Bintang Utara’s Shirtlift, who were then followed by (3)SMJK Katholik’s Calyx (they bagged 3 other awards in diff categories) who were 0.6 points behind the first runner up.

Really regret not being involved enough in BRats and I wish I’d stayed on longer so that I would’ve been able to do a report on the winner’s of the competition. Tried interviewing Calyx and at the same time obtain their routine songs CD just for Adriz, but I felt so intimidated by the 8tv reporters who were standing directly behind me, and who were obviously waiting for their turn. To make matters worse, these people were the exact same crew who came to Sri KL about a month back to interview Kila and I, and one of them even recognized me (or was pondering about where he’d seen me before) so I felt extremely pressurised. I’m worse than an amateur okaaay !!

But to tell you the truth, today reignited my interest in pursuing journalism as a career, and not a hobby. & that I’m more confident about what I want to take up in college. I know I said that I wasn’t that involved, but I’ve never been the kind of person who takes giant leaps, small steps are the way to go for me.

THANK GOD, Mas’s parents agreed to pick us up. Couldn’t imagine wasting another 2 hours enduring the suicidal train ride and endless transits just to get back home. We were stuck in a traffic jam for approx half an hour. Chatted the minutes away with Nadine and Mas about anything and everything. We even talked about gigantic hickies on people’s necks HINT HINT ;P  His parents are still the bomb lah ! :D

Can’t wait to do everything again next year ! I had a good time.

ohmylord, I feel like drink a whole carton HL Marigold Milk, it tastes like vanilla :P
Coincidentally my parents recently switched milk brands from Gooday to HL low fat.

on an unrelated note, the presense of the Indian/Bangladeshi/Nepalese guards in my condo has been expectedly discouraging. It’s like Egypt all over again, being treated like they’ve never seen a girl in their whole entire lives -_- I wish I could dig out their eyeballs. This is not discrimination btw.

& I still can’t believe that Michael Jackson is gone, dead, finnito. I mean, he still feels very much alive to me as he was before. He lives through his songs no doubt.

okaylah, I go first YAH !

au revoir.

thoughts of the hour.

1. Facebook is addictive on its own. Freaky is when I’ve got relatives constantly adding me on the social networking site. Uncle’s, aunt’s, cousin’s etc etc -_-

2. I think somewhere in my room, lives a colony of tiny ants. Mosquitoes are evil. I need insecticide please.

3. Very very very tired, and I wish my baby cousin weren’t such a twat heheh

4. My anti-virus software seems to be functioning  rather stupidly. Does anyone have any good recommendations on good and FREE anti-virus software downloads ? :D

7.  we spies, we slow hands, you put the weights all around yourself.

6. Oh yeah, my bestfriends got me some awesome birthday presents. I love you all !!!

7. National Service ; Khidmat Negara. I don’t exactly see how attending this camp next year will necessarily benefit this country in any way but oh well, a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.

8. My inbox is filled to the brim with a crap load of useless junk .-

9. Gotta get up early tomorrow. Taking KTM and I ‘fink I’ll be leading them pack of jakun peeperllss.

au revoir.